The past few weeks has been fairly rough, God is leading me into a different season that I am not used to, I must admit i have been angry and bitter to this season but I have come to the realization that it is a need for me to go through it. at least I am slowly coming to this realization. I am trying to accept this and move on.

    Through this season I am learning so much about myself and about my amazing, beautiful God. My God is my EVERYTHING! I am absolutly  NOTHING without him. it is silly for us to think that we can simply go through life without him. HE is life, He is love, HE is EVERYTHING. He is all i need, HE is pure happiness. Even though i have been lead through a season of loneliness, it is also a season of growth and strength. It is a season of growing closer to the creator of this universe… and for this reason this is a season of beauty!

I recently picked up a dusty book “in a pit with a lion on a snow day” by Mark Batterson off of my bookshelf and started to reread it. It has been over a year since i have read this book and i must say i forgot how amazing it truly is. I would like to share a quote from the book that opened my eyes. ” God is in the business of strategically positioning us in the right place at the right time. A sense of destiny  is our birthright as followers of Christ. God is awfully good  at getting us where He wants us to go. But here’s the catch: The right place often seems like the wrong place, and the right time often seems like the wrong time”

   I love this because life is full of barriers, challenges that seem to beat us down in the moment but in the long run turn out to be blessings. The hardships we go through ables us to grow and mature as a person. I guess that is what growing up is all about. we were put on this earth for a reason, and that reason is not to sulk every time something bad happens. the reason we were put on this earth is to make a difference! make the best out of what you have and turn every bad situation into something good. Most importantly everything we do is to give God the glory. He has our life in his hands… he does not want us to sit and not take risks. we must go out there and live, take a stand for what is good, change this world, make his kingdom bigger!

I started off this lovely morning feeling like poop, I have been sick for the past month and just assumed that it was from working at a daycare. Over the past few days I have developed a odd rash all over my body and thought it may be a wise decision to go to the doctor to make sure it is nothing serious. Of course I did not like the results of the visit. the doctor informed me that I have mono. this explains why I have not been my perky self lately. I am in high hopes that i will bounce right back and shake this mono right out of me asap. I have to return to my job and would like to see my friends and carry on with my life. I also have the volunteer appreciation dinner Friday night that I must attend. On the bright side of all of this I was able to have the day off. My plans for tomorrow is to watch as many movies as I can and sleep. I am also planning on being completely better by Thursdayso I am able to return to my job and have a life again… if only I could snap my fingers and have it my way…. then i guess life would not be, well life. This is the most annoying situation i have ever been in. there is so much going on in the moment that i may be forced to miss out on due to my sickness. Really praying i get better soon and no one gets sick from this!

If you know me you might say that i am a very optimistic person. I can not stress the importance of looking on the bright side of life. no matter how guarded you are, or how careful you may try to be, Life happens. There is nothing that will stop fate so why not make the best of it? there is something good out of anything bad.

   If you know me you might also say that i could possibly have the worst luck ever. It is quite comical actually. If i went into detail on some of the situations i have been in I guarantee that you would grow to appreciate your luck in a whole new way. I am currently sitting here typing this with an annoying, itchy rash all over my body due to an antibiotic i have been taking to cure my sickness that i have had for over a month. I also work at a daycare in the 1 year old room so if this rash turns out to be something that i can pass onto another human being….. that would completely suck because i just got home from working a 12 hour shift.I am in the high hopes that the benadryl i just took will prove that i am having an allergic reaction to something.  

Over the past few weeks i have been stressed with friendships, financial problems, being sick and work. Today has been such a beautiful blessing because i was able to sleep in and prepare a feast for some amazing friends of mine. I just spent hours with people that i truly love and am so thankful to have in my life. It was my first time hosting a dinner party and i must admit i was quite nervous on the outcome of the event. I am pleased to announce that my cooking was not a disaster. It was actually quite yummy. My goal is to prepare a new dish once a week. I have discovered a new love for cooking and am in the high hopes of becoming a true chef!  During one of the many conversations we had over the yummy feast the subject of Christmas came up. I am in complete shock that December is right around the corner! Time is just flying right past me!